Been quite a while since i've written anything sensible. So far, its been signing forms, doing tests, taking down notes and lucky for me, no "signing extra" yet. Basic Section Leaders Course have been trying for me. And im only halfway thru. Not to mention that i still have the Advance Section Leaders Course to overcome somewhere between August and December. In between that will be the fasting month. And somewhere between that will be Hari Raya too. Guess what, its been made known to us that we'll be spending the last days of fasting and the first few weeks of hari raya in Taiwan. How nice of the army =)

For now, lets just forget about how much more im going to suffer and reflect on what i have done so far. The most unforgettable, Navigation Exercise in Lorong Mandai. Horlan aka Holland. When someone even stutters that word, all hope of getting out alive and strong thins extremely. It actually means that you're hopelessly lost. You'll find your way out....eventually....somehow...someway...sometime.

Then there's the life firing. Firing off the grenade launcher was the BEST! You squeeze off the trigger and u watch ur round fly towards ur target. When it hits the ground, you'll see a 5mradius explosion before the BOOM hits you. A totally adrenaline orgasmic experience!

Then there's Section Training. Its really really tiring. Imagine urself training so hard on one day, going back ur bunk really really late sleeping only a few hours and to wake up again later to do the same thing over again. Yeap. Playing enemy was abit easier. But the 4 hour wait for them to come into your trap was bloody tiring. Insect bites, bee sting, heat rash, low blood sugar level black out, dehydration, near heat injury incidents, pissed at some idiot.....everything goes.

Minimum physical training for the week cept for a 4 klick run in under 15mins and the SOC test. Bloody hell. Nvr passed a single test b4 till today. To top that up, i even shaved off 2 minutes off my previous timing! How bloody great is that? Well, as my section goes, the best is never enough. Sounds egoistic but its not what it seems. It just means that we shldnt be complacent with what we have acieve but to go on and achieve as much as we can while we can.

Just seen Road To Guantanamo. Whatever i seen, it pisses me off. People get the same treatment as animals. Hell, i think its a whole lot worst. Muslims are not allowed to be muslims. They are not allowed to pray. Fuck! A guy prayed and he was beaten up. WTF?! Well, the show concluded with the saying, "Well, the world isnt such a nice place after all..." True. Singaporeans would never understand that. They live in an ideal home. Peace and harmony. Heck! We even celebrated Racial Harmony day even though its been historically proven that the racial riots was political and not racial at all. NOT EVEN A BIT!

This place is too ideal for us human beings that we forgot somewhere out there, ppl are really suffering. In singapore, ppl are less fortunate. Key word. LEss. Fortunate. Fuck. They are even lucky to be fortunate cept on a lower level. Anyone knows what's really going on out here? I dont either. But i have a slight idea. People are dying. People a starving. People are dying because they are starving. There's conflict everywhere. Ppl die of that too. God. Its sooo fucking horrible out there that most of us have choosen to ignore it. After all, there is bliss in ignorance.

Fuck....how i wish i got that contract and had the chance to sign on with the army. That way, i can learn my trade, pick up a few skills and fuck off somewhere that i put my skills to better use.


"World PEACE" said Miss Universe of every year. They dont even give a fuck to anything else but peace in their OWN world. PEACE? PISS OFF! My time will come soon and i'll show you what world peace really is.

Week 3 in SISPEC is over. 7 more weeks to complete my Basic Section Leader Course before getting promoted to a corporal. Now i really dont mind about being a section leader. Hell! Im getting the hang of it. SOC is beginning to be a breeze to me. Even though i may not be able to become the best trainee and make it for the crossover to OCS, one thing's for sure, i now am really sure what im really good at. Shooting. Realising that, im gunning for marksmanship. This is even despite of the fact that im getting to use shitty weapons like the SAR21.

The Singapore Assualt Rifle 21. Yeap. Bulpup design. 1.5x scope. Laser pointer. Flashlight. YEah. Looks pretty cool with the plastic magazine too. Rofl. That weapon is a bloody joke. Laser pointer is to be used in close quater battles. Even if we do urban warfare, we'd juz spray at hip level. All soldiers do that. Why? Because we can. And it saves a lot of trouble(that being time and the lives of our soldiers). And the flashlight??? What happen to being tactical. Sheesh.

That's the SAF. Silly Armed Forces. They do things for the sake of doing things. They juz want to be cool and stuff. They juz want to be well known in the region as the best of the best so that no one will attack this country that i love so. Yeah. I will fight the war if Singapore's being invaded. But not with the stupid plubicised stuff that they make me carry. But with my personal favourite prefrence. THE M16A1. Hoo'ah!

Then there's my second point to make. People tend to be stupid at times. Well, im not denying that fact that im stupid too at times, but they tend to go overboard with it to the displeasure of everyone. Worst is, those buggers do not even realise it. Like the saying goes,There is no such thing as a stupid question. Only stupid people who asks them. I dont noe what those buggers are thinking. And while they are at it, they are wasting valuble precious time. Bloody idiots dont even have the EQ to know that at all. They're wasting our time. Wasting our efforts. And they're wasting away our tolerence, or what's left of it anyway.

Cant write much about everything else around me cause everything else around me is currently nothing but the army. Hell, this bloody neighbourhood looked different when i reached home yesterday. But the feeling was as bad as to when i was confined in camp for training. Hell, when i got home, it felt as if i just got home from a war or something. Everything looked really really different. Me and my buddies even forgot what Burger King food tasted like. I wonder if they would really happen if i did go to war. Hell, i wonder if there would still be any Singapore left of or would be just a part of my memory.

Booking out to see the outside world really pisses me off. First of all, from soldiers we all now face Singaporeans. Well, im a Singaporean too but im proud of it for other reason. What im not proud of is the attitude that everyone has. Singaporeans always must have something first. They must be the best in everything that they do. And if they know that they're not good enough, they'll juz get plain ol' ugly. An ugly incident happened to me yesterday in the MRT. Its about an ugly ol' auntie. And its not because of how she looked like, i mean, she really was ugly. But i dont give a fuck if she's ugly. She is an auntie anyway. It was her attitude. Hell, i got into the train. Went to the centre of the carriage so that ppl behind could squeeze in into the train as well. Partly it was also because there was a cute girl sitting down there too. But that's not the point. Me and my buddy was walking towards the centre when from the corner of my eye, i saw this auntie dashing in; trying to get a seat. Fuck. There were still a lot of seats inside the train. I boarded at Jurong East btw. Yet, she just had to rush for 1. She end up banging into me and almost get me to knock her down.( I stood tall and stiff. You cant knock a soldier down. Only soldiers are able to do that to one another) I gave her the stare and pissingly told her "Auntie! Why the rush? There's still a lot of seats left. I was thinking of sitting but you can have my seat. Happy?" Yeah. That felt really good. Feels bloody good to tell someone off. Well, that's just one classic example which you can notice about Singaporeans. Try obeserving them closely. And guys, dont be afraid to tell them off. If they want to whack you, well...just whack back! Other than that i cant do much coz most likely i'll be in camp training away to become a Combat Spec.

EVERYTHING IN THE SAF IS RESTRICTED. EVEN A BLANK PIECE OF PAPER

Life's moving a little too fast for me. Well, currently, i dont really mind that coz im at the shitty point of life. Yeap. Undergoing a tough course. It's not physically that tough, but its just that mental thing. We only get ot go out for 24hrs. Yeap. 24hrs a week. That's not even enuff for us to enjoy ourselves. Not abit anyway.

Anyway, life's a fuck.