Why do people smoke? Hmm...funny im asking this question since im one of those people. Part of the smoking population eh? So, this question could be very well directed at myself. Doing some soul searching on the world wide web? Perhaps...or maybe it just struck me. Why am i smoking???

S-T-R-E-S-S. Yeap. The number 1 reason people give as to why they smoke. Its understandable lah. I mean, you need an outlet to release some of that tension right? And among all the things that you can do, smoking is the least harmless. Shocking statement? Let me explain...
Imagine you get involved in a stressed induced conflict. Let's say, you decided that you dont like that guy's face and you would really love the pleasure of rearranging it. You could get hurt, he could get hurt...and there's still the collateral damage worth mentioning.
Then, there's always you talking too much. God...how much trouble you're going to get yourself into.
And lastly...you can always go boozing. Crap man. It's instant death if you happen to be driving.
See my point here?

Medical reasons states otherwise saying that its the nicotine in your blood from all that cigarettes that's actually causing the stress. Gee, i didnt noe every single tom dick and harry smoked cause everybody's facing some sort of stress. Smokers simply choose to smoke as an outlet. But yes, i agree that nicotine induces uneasiness among smokers. WE need the nicotine to feel all comfy. Its called an addiction. But its not as bad as the addiction to drugs, caffine, sex, alcohol and plenty of other things that might seem normal to you and others, but my opinion differs. Not just a bit, but by alot.

Right now, i know i might sound as if im promoting smoking. Im not. Im just stating facts here. Im just saying why people smoke. Why? So that we can actually understand the problem first before we can search out for the solution. Hasnt the army taught any of you that? Appreciation of Situation ppl!!! For those in the SPF or SCDF, you're not excused. Policemen fight baddies off the streets, Firefighters fight fires on the buildings along the streets. U still need to do AOS before you can actually solve the problem right?

So now i've identified the problem...comes the solution. Quiting!

Yes. Q-U-I-T-I-N-G. It takes more than just self-discipline to do that. Smoking has bcome part of the habits that i do from the time i take flight from lala land to the time i land back into lala land. Its not a good habit. But then again, most of the habits that i have arent exactly that good either. Unless you call cursing a good habit. Or eating a lot good too. Or a thousand other things that i'd be doing good.

So how do i do it? Simple. I just spend more time with the ones i love. And in order to increase the chances of that happening, you'd have to take steps and measures right? Smoking increases the chances of death(along with the everyday things that you people do). So...quit smoking. Simple. No smoke, no sickness, more time with my sayang =). A+B=C. ( those math geeks out there, pardon my maths. I have no interest in your opinions in my formula. U see, u bitch about me all you want but in the end, this is an english language blog. Not a math blog. You can do all tha bitching to the rest of the math geek's blogs in the world but not mine. Im not one you)

Need more help? Call 1800-QUITLINE. But this is only for those losers fighting a losing battle. YOu morons shld be more disciplined!!!

I AM THANKFUL FOR THE WIFE WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT, BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME, AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.

FOR THE HUSBAND WHO IS ON THE SOFA BEING A COUCH POTATO, BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.

FOR THE TEENAGER IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME, NOT ON THE STREETS.

FOR THE TAXES I PAY BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED .

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE.

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING, WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING, AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME .

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION .

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN >>CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.

AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE PEOPLE WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.


The way is see, there's two ways you could take a peek at life. Positively or negatively. Yah, i know this might sound like cliche, but ya, there's no other way that i can put it. Its simply the way that it is. Even tho the world's isnt that much of a nice place to live, but yah, lets take a peek at the positive side and it might just be bearable. I noe i noe, it gets worst as u grow older. When was the world a nice place to live in anyway? Oh yes...when we were young little boys and girls. The only toys that we know off would be ones known as Little Tykes, Playdoh, micromachines and well, much much more. Things change as u grow older. The only thing that doesnt change would definately be the likes of Transformers. They just get cooler is a grew older. What?!?! It's a great movie!! Hell yeah! Sad to say tho, i dont play with i used to play with. Now i'd play with toys with badass names...nothing wholesome about them. They'd just put holes in you instead. Wanna noe them? Sure.....they come in many shapes, sizes and ya, weights too. They have names like the M203, M18A1 and soooooooooooo much more. Yup. Mean toys....sad isnt it?

Im straying off topic tho. Yes. The only reason that the world isnt as nice as it used to be is because one of thing and one thing only. One word to sum it all and in the darkness, rule them all! Kinda ala lord of the rings isnt it? Yeap..."RESPONSIBILTY". I mean, which kid had to responsibility to take care of himself anyway(thats the basic responsibility anyone could ever have). Coz if the kid did, then it'd be very very scary just to think of it. Imagine, u having a collegue of 3 years of age. Kinda rubbish isnt it? Sad part is, it might just become a reality in the not so distant future.

Again....im straying off again!!! Crap......What was i talking about? Oh yes...y the world isnt such a nice place after all. Look around you...the 7 deadly sins are all around you. Pride, Envy, Gluttony, Lust, Anger, Greed and Sloth. Religious or not, its just human nature. Best we could ever do is to not do it excessively i guess. Overdoing something is just as bad as not doing it in the first place. Cept that, not doing any of the above 7 things is never a reality( it will never be!! trust me)

But that's not my point. I was just pointing out how bad life really is. But you can go along living live moping all the way till u actually pass on(at this juncture, i just imagined everyone dragging their faces on the ground as they walk. Dont ask me why, but i find this hilarious). Gotta think positive. And those subculture thingy...screw em'. They want to think that everybody sucks because we all dont agree to their opinion. Well, this is mine. U and ur opinion suck. I dont care what you think about my opinion coz i just cldnt give a flying fuck about yours either. So there...we're even now see? Ha! Subcultures and their opinion about ppl....can u just imagine what they're thinking? This is what they actually think "Everybody sucks because they dont understand what im thinking..." Who can actually understand a thought that is very very fickle and esp when you dont want to talk abt it and just remain angry coz nobody cares................Subculture ppl...WAKE UP UR FUCKING IDEAS!!!!! Hahahhaa...im just plain wicked arent i?

Crap...gone off track again. Urm...nothing makes sense now does it? Hence the blog name...blabberbutt =) Read it and weap.........(hopefully it'd be tears of humour tho)

Its been a long time since i've wrote. Guess im kinda in a mood to write right now...
Past week has been really really trying. Honestly, i thought i was going to have a breakdown at any time. Being on high alert for 24hours a day, 7 days in one week....it sucks u noe. Tiring mentally and physically. Glad thats all over now...even tho its just not quite yet. Sian.

Crap...the moods gone. Maybe i'll just write another day then.

There's a big problem with jc kids. They sometimes talk too much.....way too much perhaps. They talk before they even think. They talk without even consulting. Yeah..i noe im going to be hated after this but ya...im just telling u the truth. If you can accept this fact...than dont hate me just yet. Take a second to sit down and think about it. Fuck...im a jc kid myself....rather i was a jc kid.

Where did i get this conclusion? Well, from the course i went to. Yeap...those people should noe whom i talking abt. I shall not name names...im already specific as it already is. Ya..i do talk a lot myself...and not just to defend myself, i try to think about what i have to say before i say it. Yeap...keyword being "TRY". And this takes place most of the time...the rest of the time, i just shoot off and then wait for the consequence to drop on me. Yeap...that means getting shot back at.

Do you actually realize or even hear what's coming out of your mouth sometimes??? Hah....can you like let us noe the objective of accomplishing a mission? Crap...they make crappy soldiers too sometimes. People from my unit, not to worry...we make kickass sargeants!!! Ya......talk way too much but when it comes down to the execution phase...what do you get? Close to crappy results...might as well put me in for a permenant appointment holding and give me the bloody plaque. Looks nice with the rest of my medals anyway.....

Hmm...and yes. Im a jc kid too just to remind the rest whom have terribly short memory....(even tho i just wrote it). Haiz...and this is coming from ppl who came from JCs...imagine those who are still in them. They complain all day long.....but ya, nothing productive actually comes out of it...unless of course they actually wants to produce enough fertilizers just so that more trees can be planted, well growned and hopefully someday, the global warming situation can be handled just because they talk a lot. hmm...might be a sound plan.

And ya...what's so good to be in a jc anyway? It only shows that you cant do shit with your hands...u can only think of something, visualize it and ya...it stops there. Yet, these buggers go around the place wearing their school uniform proudly telling ppl they are from jc so fuck off! HAha...ever thought that when you actually fail ur a lvls...u're no different from the dude studying in ITE?(not that im bringing down ITEs...the society already did that. I didnt. Im not society. Im Fadzil. Thats...F-A-D-Z-I-L.(and to those crappers who cant pronouce or spell my name proper, go shit in your pants okay?)

Kinda lost track as to what i was writing about....bt who cares when i didnt rite? Hmm....maybe gopal or mary or johnathan or ahmad does...but the tom,dick and harry that i noe doesnt. Hehs...fuck. i better stop.......

Its over. Its finally over! 154th Platoon Sargeant Course has unofficially ended with the end of Ex Hawk. Think i have gone over the edge with this one. But ya..who cares? All i care about is what my men are going thru right now with the other shitheads taking charge of them.

Why do shitheads exists in the first place? What is their purpose here? Oh ya, btw, the defination of a shithead is a fucking selfish person who wants nothing to do with society cept those things that can benefit him coz he is incapable to the society but yet he exists. Everyone noes that a shithead is useless, baseless, and doesnt noe shit about shit. In short, he is a person with a lot of shit inside his head. Courtesy of the dicitionary of Fadzford.

Why did god put these people on earth? Issit to make lives like mine more difficult? Issit to make normal people look like extraordinary people(kinda like that show a decade back Extraordinary aka Kau Istimewa). God noes. Maybe god is playing a trick on us all or maybe he's just testing us. Like saidm god works in mysterious ways.....i would certainly love to find out which way it would be so that maybe just maybe i could work just the same. If not, i'd just take the expressway.

Nevertheless, a lof of things to settle once i get back to my unit from my course. A lot of shit needs to be flushed. A lot of people needed to be sorted out. In short, more work, less me. That sucks. CAnt believe it that im actually eager to sort the mess out. BE PREPARED SHITHEADS!!! IM COMING FOR YOU!!!

ahahaha....something about the course. Cant believe how much of an agressive person i can be. Issit the stress? Issit the frustration? Issit the fatigue? God noes. Perhaps its a combination of all three. Ive reprimanded people old enuff to be fathers. HEck...i've reprimanded fathers. A 20year old boy giving a 29 year old father the battering of the harshest words he could ever receive. Yeap, that was me.

I was literally a living, breathing animal thru out the entire summary exercise. I eat when i was hungry, smoked when i wanted to, reprimanded becoz i was angry, slept coz i was tired. Not caring about anyting else in the world....cept for my few brothers who are going thru the same thing with me. I kept telling all of them..."dengar-dengar skarang Platoon Sargeant Course ader melayu jer...." Yeap.....fuckers all the rest.

Nvm...its all over now...end of one suffering, the beginning of another. My life could get any better can it? Crap.....