Damn...its been a loong time since i wrote anyting in this godforsaken place. Been bz perhaps? Or maybe i cant find anything to bitch and moan about maybe/possibly/most likely/normally/usually(and im out of probabilities to write about) ive been very very happy these past few months. =) (im beaming!!!)

And yah, i dont usually write when im happy. because when i do write, i usually bitch and moan....Then again, i am bitching and moaning because ive got nothing to bitch and moan about. DAMN! Hmm...i need my muse.

Sayang printed out a whole stack of whatever i wrote about since dec 2005 and has been reading it since. Damn...i have absolutely no idea abt half of those things ive wrote then. Well, maybe i've forgotten about them? Yeah...that's a likely case. One things for sure tho...i miss my rugby. I miss my oval ball. I miss whacking people without having to feel guilty about it coz they're not the usually pussies who'd die or get knocked down when you do. I miss having to squeeze my brain just to figure out how to get from where i am to the try line all this done while running at my top speed. I miss all of those things.

Hmm...rugby. Guess the only reason i miss my rugby is because its the only thing i can do to ever feel alive. I mean...no one would be crazy enough just to play a sport all the way till a major exam unless its RUGBY! And hell yeah..just as i was getting better at it, i got called up into the army...damn. No matter...hopefully i would have some time to do that when i go back to school next year. So it'd be studies, sayang, part-time job and rugby. It's a great juggle i'd be making there. But if i can manage all of those with little or not hiccups....life years down the road shouldnt be any problem at all.

WEll...just a few more hours to the rugby world cup finals. Springboks vs England(what are the fondly known as anyway? rossies just because its like their national symbol of some sort? or pussies coz they really play like one...) Hopefully i'd still be awake to watch a little bit of that match...

Till then........

Finally...the day ive been waiting for. TGIF!!! Thank god its friday! This friday is a little bit different from the usual fridays...urm. Maybe except for last friday. And ya..lots of fridays actually. Okay fine, only different from the fridays that i dont get to see my sayang. Hehs.

Thank god that stupid evaluation exercise is over. Im done with it. The next one will be coming in january. Haiz...that'll be the bomb. 4 days of fighting? Oh god...wonder how the men are going to cope. Shit..i did 9 days of straight fighting with my buddies and ya...it was extremely tiring but we extremely enjoyed withing alongside each other.

Hmm...last day of ramadan already. Doesnt feel like long does it? Perhaps of the fact that i was super busy with the evaluation exercise. But thank god its hari raya tmr!!! Yea...been waiting for this day since last year. Last hari raya was spent in taiwan. Never tot i'd say this but im really really looking forward to have it with my family tmr. Hell, i cant believe over the past years ive been trying to get away from it by giving excuses like exams and shit like that....haiz. LAst year, i actually got away from hari raya and i felt really really miserable. Noway is that going to happen again.

Cant wait to see my sayang later tonite. =)

Tried to apply for a scholarshop with the Public Service Comission board. Seems to take a lot longer that i anticipated. Oh well, i'll do it when i get home this coming wednesday i guess. Hmm...hopefully i'll get it. Kinda like the idea of working in the public sector. Rather civil service. Yeah...its not really the money but the kind of thing i get to do. Or rather can do.

Yesterday's night with sayang was a blast. Except for the intial part. Break fast at 2hot cafe at esplanade. It was terrible!!! Firstly, we got chucked away at some corner...yeah. Tat wasnt very good at all. The table was even set yet!!! So what are you all trying to say? That we're unexpected??? ARent you supposed to expect the unexpected?!?!?!? Idiots....that's what managing a restaurant is about isnt it??? Well, for the better bulk of it at least. AS if that wasnt insulting enough, i had to wait for a whole damn long for the food. If they made me wait for 10-15mins, i wouldnt mind at all. But a whole half an hour??? Damn....its not as if you were trying to dish out a gourmet meal or something. It was just somehting damn simple. And there were only a few dishes that i could order. And half of it isnt even available!!! So what went wrong? The service. Terrible service staff you've got there. And when a waitress did finally brought my food, she did nothing but to just stand there and smile at me when i made some remarks to show how disgusted i was. Wtf?!?! Is she stupid or something??? She was supposed to say something like "sorry for the terrible service. Is there something complimentary that we could offer you for the nuisance that we've caused you?" Nah....she just stood there, bewildered at my temper and then walk away quickly hoping to not get involved in anything. DAmn....

Sayang, im sorry you had to see me on my bad side. I cant promise you that you wont see any more of it but i promise that it will be as least as possible. And trust me, it wont be directed towards you. Im sorry i scared you with my temper. Something seems to make me angry lately. And yeah, my men has been getting the worse end out of it. What could i do? I was indeed am pissed off at them for their selfishness. Now...im going to direct my anger at a few outstanding personnel that's the root of all the problem. You selfish bastards are going to die!!!!!

A few more days to raya. Hmm...cant wait for that. Especially the part where my sayang said about going to geylang with her on malam raya. Jalan2 kat bazar...hmm...that sounds interesting considering the fact that i've never been there at such a time. And also the fact that i get nauseous in such a big crowd. But with her around, it makes it all worth it. =)

Gtg to camp now. Stupid evaluation exercise.........