Damn...didnt get to climb the mountain like the other time. The view of the city at night was awesome but didnt get the opportunity to photograph it coz we had to keep moving. Plus...we had to be cautious so as to not reveal the troop's position. Damn...wasted opportunity. Did get other pics from another mountain though. Thank god its all over now. Last few days have been really really tiring.

Well, one thing down...another one to go. This time around...i am going to be the one fighting. A long week for pure mental, physical and urm...something else kind of torture. Enemy's a bitch too. Fight pro soldiers. Men are not quite up to the standard or the occasion either. And im not sure of my condition either. Fighting in the mountains? Urm...ya. Kill them all and let god sort them out later. Sort who out? That's the big surprise that im not keen off. If my men dies...tat means tat im a failure. If they do...then im not a failure...nt a success either. It does however give me a leverage to what courier tat i might be taking on in the future. Hopefully tat i do get the job of my choice cos frm my point of view, leaders of men in this army are effectively uneffective. Like the saying goes about the war fought from 1914-18, "fought by heroes, lead by fools". Hopefully, whatever happens nxt can changed that fact coz rite now, im feeling very very vulnerable about our country's stand. If they cld pay for my education...id be really really grateful to do the country's armed forces some good. Some real good.

Then again, people would be asking me y? Why take up a shity job like that?? Well, first of all, its not really abt the money. Financial wise, i've got support from my parents. Ya. I noe, im already so old yet im still depending on my parents. WEll, its because of the country's system thats y im like so. Challenge? There is also a lot of chanlleges elsewhere. Im not looking for challenge. But, i am looking to help people. So far, tats most of the things tat ive been doing. But i dont quite find that fulfilling. But if u look at africa, middle east and a lot of other countries, u'd find orphans and the poor and dying and damn. Kinda like MCR's song. But no...my dad did talk to me abt such things before.

Helping people. Yea...children especially. Why? Well, tats coz they are the people of the future. So far, ive been unable to do a thing about it. Even as i serve my Ns, i was demoralized when i was told becoz of my status, i was unable to go out for peacekeeping missions. Peacekeeping? Well, only regulars cld do it. And if i was a regular, well, i'd be one step closer to be able to do help those poor kids. Their parents cld be..urm...overlooked. Ya. Coz they did all they cld and id say its simply not enuf coz they were already like their children to begin with. And they are dying. They are hoping however that someone does come and help finish off their job as a parent to provide for coz they were unable to. They are already in that condition. The inferior position to fulfil their roles as parents effectively coz their parents were also like them. Help the children, help the others. The multiplier issue here.
Some other time then.













Well, exercise is coming. Like what my ex-OC said, "when it starts, it starts to end". Hopefully, there's a lot of truth to it.

going to climb a moutain later...

Yes...finally. Moving out to do what i came here to do. Wish i was going out for some sort of operation instead of just "playing war". What's the use? You dont train for tourneys with more training. You do it with warm-up games. Followed by friendly matches. And usually the starting of the season, u usually start off with the easy teams to pick on. Well, that is an exception to most teams but tats how it basically works. Rugby is simple. Rugby is life. Rugby is war....without the gore.

Anyway, last few days is urm...rather mudane. Same shit, different day. Cept for today where we went thru some bit of training for the coming general activity. A lot of walking but who gives a flying fuck. Im going out with great enthusiasm. Something like this doesnt happen. Especially if ure in my position. But rite now, everything seems like one big vacation and im enjoying every single bit of this shit. No me, no worries excpet for myself and my collegues. Simple shit. Different pace.

Tat's what bores me tobe where i am. Its nothing but exercise. Operation is reserved for those extra extra special people. Fucked up. Foreign army maybe?

i am fadzils friend and i think he is abang body.

3rd day and its still nothingness. Spending the whole day in camp sleeping, eating, smoking and the occasional trips to the toilet. Fuck...this is killing me.

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Exercise wont be around for another 5 days tops. Till then, its nothing but wake up, run, breakfast, sleep, lunch, sleep, dinner and more sleep. Eat sleep, eat sleep. It gets pretty dead around camp.

Nite's off in camp is urm....just as dead? But we are surrounded by the taiwanese civilians. WHERE ARE THE CHICKS????? It only makes it more dead. Only during this time do people wait to actually go out into the field even if it means no hot shower, no hot food, no warm bed to tuck into for the next few days. But yah. The soldier in me wants to go out there. Just to pass the time? Maybe. To gain experience? Possibly. A more likely reason would simple be: because i can. Time to enjoy my sex on the beach and some salad now.

This is the last write before i fly off to taiwan tonite. A mth of taiwan. Weehoo...that's abit of an extended stay isnt it? Well...duty calls. Have to answer it. No arguement to be made.

How i wished i had went there by ship instead. Flying simply scares the balls out of me. Imagine this while sitting down in an aircraft the next time you fly. Underneath your feet is the floorboard. Underneath that will be millions of wires and cables followed by the fuselage. Underneath it all is nothing but 30,000ft of air. Imagine falling thru 30,000ft of nothingness. Ground is coming up fast into your face. Yeah...scary isnt it? I suppose that's what aircraft entertaintment's for. Keep your mind out of things like that.

Well. Orders are for me to take the plane to taiwan. No choice given there is it? Hopefully everything goes smooth sailing.

I'd like to write more but gotta pack. Yeap. Till nxt mth then!

Week's been great. I think. Imagine coming back to work on a weekend because some topper fucked everything up and u just had to be at the receiving end. Fuck! Really fucked. He cause unimaginable logistical nightmare. If he was at the receiving end...then he'd know how everyone else feels.

Major exercise coming and guess what?! Im holding a major appointment! fuck! Two ways to look at it. Im going to fuck up big time or........im going to learn something new and in the process make a name for myself. NOT INTERESTED in both!! Well...learning something new...maybe. Making a name for myself!? Nope. No thanks. Im not in it for fame or fortune. Im in it so that i can help my men get thru 2 years of shitty life. My life itself can get pretty shitty at times because of this. But who cares?! Im loving it! Except for certain times. And for certain leadrship.

Cant really talk abt something to get ur brain thinking coz im sort of in a rush. CAnt really talk much coz it might get me into trouble with the army too! rofl. Life's a bitch.

Rugby....yeah rugby. Getting the feel of it again. Can feel the fire re-igniting again. 7 years of rugby. Hope it goes on and on and on. Rugby's out smoking's in. When i get to play it again...rugby's in smoking's out.

The frequency of me writing in has getting lesser. Nothing really to talk about.
Well...there are somethings.

Incompetent officers.
Screwed-up organizations.
Kanchiong boss.
Me being overlyambitious(Think i'll make it into Special Forces?).
A nice girl that i got to know off over the net who takes killer photos.
My bro performed at Ngee Ann City Kid's Central Big in the City(wasnt tat good compared to the last one).

What else is there? Oh yes....incompetent people whom im surrounded by. Thankfully...they are the minority.