It's been 10 years since I set up this writing space of mine. 10 years...gone past just like that. All the time that's gone, traded for the many experience that I stood to gain. Not all were good. Some were sweet, others not so sweet. But as I think back about all the time that has passed, those experiences were nothing less than bittersweet.
What has changed over the last 10 years? If we count it from the last post, well, I am finally about get married. It isn't without its trials and tribulations, as with many things in life. Although I don't show much excitement towards it, its probably because it is beginning to turn into a stressful affair. Wish it was just between her and me. Alas, it is not to be.
There are some days that I do ask God what it is that He has planned out for me. So far, I've got nothing but silence. Perhaps, that is God's way of telling me that He is all-wise and all-knowing while I am not. Perhaps that is His way of telling me that I need him in my life more than anything else. So, me, being just a Man, I can only continue to pray that whatever the outcome that God has for me in life, it is for my best.
My working life has been nothing more than it is - a job that I go to everyday. The pay is alright, it pays the bills. But I really do not have the passion for what I am doing. The fact that I am writing this note over lunch shows how interested I am in getting things done.
Job hunting hasn't been very fruitful either. If I am going to switch jobs for a lower pay, it better be something that is worth it. With the house coming, and public housing priced at half a million SGD, I believe that at least one of us have to be earning quite a bit to be paying for it. The other can just earn comfortable enough to get by. Woe this life is. Sigh.
But it's okay. I guess, for the money, I could just stay on. Career progression in this company is there, although, it is rather limited.
This is beginning to get rather depressing. Something that is supposed to be quite a nostalgic affair is turning out to be a moment of truth for me. 10 years have gone by I feel that those 10 years were quite rather wasted.
Truthfully, I feel that I was a much better person 10 years ago. I was very idealistic and running with full of passion in whatever I was doing. But times have changed, and I have grown up. I have entered the growing old phase.
I wonder how life will turn out for me in the next 10 years. Maybe it'll be for the better. Hopefully it wouldn't be for the worse. Only God knows what will happen to me over the next decade. Late 20s coming to an end. Pray to God I'll have nothing but bitter sweet memories 10 years later.
Happy 10 years anniversary Blabberbutt!
