Noe what im really afraid of? Dying. Ya. Dying far away from home. That's the only concern that i have right now. I mean, death? Aiya...who's not going to die? Everyone will die eventually.....rite? I hope those freaks no longer exists. The only thing im afraid of is to die after being away from my family for a very long time. Hopefully(really really hopefully) that doesnt happen to me. Coz if it does...it would suck like fuck. Oh wells....Taiwan better be nice to me.

Nearing the end of my course. YA BALLS! Soon, people will be calling me Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgeant! HELP!!! ROfl. Especially recruits. Let's see how my options are...if i go to 4 SIR, i'd be taking 1 year old soldiers. That means, i'll be ORD-ing with them. If i end up with 3 Guards, i'd be training the best. Since they start as recruits. If i fuck up somewhere, i'd end up in tekong. Condemned for life(NS life lah..)

My english has been deteriorating ever since i enlisted. Hell! This is the first time ever that i've been surrounded by so many malays! Thrilled? Possibly. Hell, we malays make the best soldiers! Why? When there's work to be done, we'd do it. And we do it goooooooooooooooood. We're soooooo proud being a soldier that urm....we'd march properly? I dunno...there's a zinc to it. Some sort of an X-factor to it. I mean, who repelled the Japs to almost total annihilation during ww2? The malay regiment! No retreat. No defeat. No supplies. No reinforcements. No chance in hell that the japs were getting thru without getting thru them first. YEap. MALAY SOLDIERS. Wonder y the govt prefers to keep the malays in the low these days.

Maybe it could be because of the M&M syndrome these days. Yeap. Mats and minahs. Well....not all malays are mats and minahs. Not all is bad. That's like saying that all chinese are bengs. And all indians are urm...indian gangsters. Or all middle easterners are terrorists. Well...that's the perception everyone has esp to the middle easterners. Wear a burka and u'll need to liberated. Grow a beard and tat means you're carrying a bomb. What bullshit? Guess its the people who stereotypes who are the ones that are FUBAR than those who have been stereotyped.

And to that idiot who gave the open secret. SCREW YOU! NSF to NSmen...im going to knock the socks off your balls!


Gawd...i need some rugby.....

I juz got mistaken for a student today. Or since its after 072359hrs, yesterday. A year ago, i was mistaken for an NSF. What's wrong with people?!!? Maybe its them. Could be me. Longing to be a student these days. A year ago, i was longing to be a soldier. Grass is always greener on the other side...maybe. Maybe the grass is radioactive. That could a valid and stupidly imaginative reason. K...juz being childish.

Taiwan taiwan taiwan. 4 hours flight+4 hour bus ride+3 week wait+Come back home sweet home+POP= 3SG Mohd Fadzil. The best of the best. Go to unit. Lead my men. ORD. Back to studies. Back to life...

ORD. That reminds me, i need to get a job to support myself. Im thinking starbucks or taxi driver. Barista/taxidriver by night, student by day. Sounds like im going to be some sort of a superhero. A weird screwed up who's only life he's saving is his own. Yea well...start small. End BIG. YEa balls.

Not much to blog these days. Running out of things to blabber about. Cept for the bloody haze these days. But im taking it all out on Welson since he's from indonesia. Wonder how he's taking it. Aiya...the bugger's rich. He could juz pay me to shut up. If only he knew...

Hmm....what else? Nothing much i guess. I miss home a lot more these days. Dunnoe y.

Finally. Home. Been a long week of fighting this week. Didnt really feel it though coz most of the time it was spent fighting or sleeping. Ya. We Singaporean soldiers are damn famous for sleeping anywhere, anytime! Even during parades. So now you know......
Finally, i passed my SOC test. For those oblivious ones, SOC is the shitties test ever to exist that tests our physical fitness in a soldier-y kind of way. 700m rundown. A wall to climb over. Bla bla bla....and finally after jumping off a ramp with barb wires at the bottom its "RUN LIKE HELL OR YOU'LL FAIL IDIOT!!!" for 600m to the finish line. If you've seen the movie Army Daze, you'll know what im talking about. I clock 8.46mins for that. The fastest i did. Time to go for commando standard. Yeah balls!

Okay, what i've done so far, Combat Skills badge. March all the way through the night. Finished it with a day shoot for advanced targeting. Did a few fast marches. Ya. And fasting. And ya. A live firing platoon exercise. Kinda scary when you're the commander for such exercises. You actually see rounds flying past you. You'd have to really have the balls to trust your man not to shoot you in that. Tip of the day, be nice to them! Works well enuff for me to live another day.

Fasting. Making me skinny. But faster. Stronger. And even angrier. Ya. Esp when ppl who are not fasting that do not do their job accordingly. They claim to be tired. I'll kill them if i was holding an appointment. Those buggers have been lucky so far....

Okay, now im out of things to write coz everything that i've written so far, its been quite boring. U think? Ya. Cant wait till taiwan training. Winter training!