welcome to the suck

Yesh! Finally! THE LONG AWAITED LONG WEEKEND! That's the best part. The bad part is that i have to book in tommorow nite. For those of you who doesnt noe, booking in is the not-wellliked thing to do in the army. We're talking abt training and torturing and all those stuff not like when you book in into a hotel or a chalet. Very different. VERY VERY DIFFERENT!

Today passed by too fast. Yesterday, we only got to book out at 1900hrs! That's 7pm in civie terms. That sucks. And yes, we're among the first few to book in tmr!!! Where's the fairness in that?! Nevertheless, i have to keep reminding myself on why we have to do this. That's the only thing that keeps me going. If not, i'll just suffer a breakdown. Y? Well, there's almost the lost of the existence of a social life. The freedom to do anything i want at anytime is lost forever(i signed up to join the army. shit). What else? Lost my hair? I like getting it done at the saloon. Now, it's going to be barber all the way. Supposedly, it'll make me look smart. What rubbish. Time at the gym isnt going to exist anymore either. This sucks. But then again, im not supposed to be selfish and think abt me. Im supposed to think about others. That's y we serve.

To all those ppl who are fucked up beyond all recognition as to shun us, laugh at us, despise us...let me tell you one thing: FUCK YOU! UNDERSTAND?! What's wrong with you people? Just because we sweat doesnt mean we stink like fuck! Yeah, we stink a little. But we do notice it. It just cant be helped. Try marching a few klicks before even getting a chance to board that ferry home. And im still not refering to even boarding that ferry yet! There's still this very small chance that our superiors might make us stay back if we screw up somewhere! IT's just hope that we have! After we make it back to Singapore safely, then we can heave a sigh of relieve. By then, we've already sweated. So ya, we stink a little. I've noticed it. So is the rest of my buddies. We're people too you know. Human beings like everyone. Cept that we've got dicks instand of pussies coz we're men. That's the only difference between us and everybody else. WE've got dicks and our rifle is ready to show that we've got them! So the nxt time you see a recruit or any other soldier for that matter of fact, dont shun them away. Dont leave a gap in between urself and that soldier. What's wrong with u?! That's the guy who's going to protect you and ur family when malaysia or another other countries that's close enough(and angry enough at us) attacks us u dickheadS!

Nevertheless, my grandparents got that proud look on their faces when i came over. Yeah. Im the first son in the entire family to be in the army. And when i mean entire, i really mean the entire family. That means my extend family too; relatives and all. So everything i do inside, im doing my best. Even if i screw up sometimes, im still doing my best coz im only human. Stab me, and i'll bleed after im done killing u. Punch me, and i'll bruise after im done whacking u uncouncious. Mock me, and i'll be embarressed but not after i humilate u infront of the entire world. See! That's how human i really am.

Guess how happy i am right now? Quite happy! Im finally getting recognize for my rugby efforst in my JC. Im accepted into the Sociology course at NTU! Urm...what else? Oh yeah! Im finally getting to experience how it feels like to suffer like a real soldier does! Nothing to be happy abt that though, but once that is done, i'll noe how to move, feel, smell, talk, hear and think like a soldier. It's the experience that im after. The rugby part...well...i rather have a trophy but an award for a recognition will do.

Rugby was the best thing that ever happened in my life! yeah. Taught me a lot of things. Skills, teamwork, leadership, toughness and yada yada yada. It taught me that if someone hits you, u return him with a bigger hit! Sounds uncivilied but ya, that's how things are actually done cept that its now done secretly. Ya. Go figure that one out. If you were never in a rugby team, ure life is a shitty one. You can try to make it look like u've had a fun and fulfilling life but ure only lying to urself. It's really really shitty. seriously. Y? Well, u're nvr really be open minded. U're a bigass pussy. ure one big dumbfreak. and u're going to look stupid. ya. Life is all about rugby. The greatest instituition of life.