Looks like today was well spent after all. Hung out talking cock with Ying Han and Melvin from last nite till this morning. Kinda fun. Then gymed a little. Watched abit of TV. Went out to shop for my army supplies. Went towning. Went Chinatowning. Walked here. Walked there. Its good to feel like a civilian every once in awhile. At least from there, you'll know how to reconnect to ur life as a civilian. It makes things easier as compared to seperating us from the rest of the society for months, or maybe years before letting us rejoin it. It'll take a lot of effort for us to do so. Y? Because soldiers are essentially unruly, uncivilised and we certainly do not mix well with civies. Y? Well, its because we are working our butts off to defend this country while the rest are just...well...taking it easy! Yeah, you can never be grateful about what you have until u go thru hardship in life. Being a soldier is one of those things that helps us to appreciate life better.

In Chinatown today, i saw a malay family. But that's not the point. The point was, their child was living quite a comfy life. His parents, well, they look like the kind that works hard. We all know that our mom had to endure a lot of pain while giving birth to us. I dont know about old moms but i bet(notice the words I BET! they might not be 100% true. its up to ur own judgement. this is mine=) ) that modern moms think that the pain that they have to bear during childbirth was the greatest pain they'll ever have as a mom. Little do they noe that the pain that god made them experience was to prepare them with the pangs of pain that having a child will bring them in the future as their children grow up. And the joy after childbirth. That's the same joy that they'll feel once their child is all grown up and that child will become a parent himself. Im pretty sure that the mom will feel a sense of relieve too as she thinks tat the bad part(child labour) is now over. Even though she may in the grave, that's what mothers exactly feel when their child passes away. Abit of grieve yes. But its more of a sense of relieve. Especially if her child had led a long and fulfilling life. Y? Well, its because she noes that her child ceased experiencing the pain that life brings about. The torture, the harassment, the terrible terrible someting. She is relieved coz her child does not have to suffer anymore. That's 3 different emotions.

The 3 emotions got me a little sidetracked. I once red this little poem about how we treat our moms. Kind of a sad truth actually. Well, the family at chinatown. They dont look like they're well to do at all. Yet, the child was really living a comfy life. Do u noe how much sacrifices his parents has to make in order for him to lead a comfy life? A whole bloody lot. Now, im not arrowing him as an irresponsible son of a gun. Im just using him as an example. By saying that he lives a comfy life is my way of saying that he looks kinda carefree. HOw does he do that? Well, his parents sacrificied a lot for him. I bet ur parents do the same. For example, the school starts asking for more money. What does ur parents do? Put in more overtime work in order to pay for the schools demands. Btw, if school starts asking for money, it really begins to show that the govt isnt giving the school enough money. Yet we pay the same amt of tax every year. What are they doing with the money??? I wonder.... Back to track. Ya. Overtime. They'll just get tired. Then out of a sudden, the school wants more money ASAP! If the boy does not hand over the money ASAP, he will be dealt as a disciplinary case. ya. WTF? What does the parent do? Yeap. Sacrifice. They will hand over whatever money they have left so that the child will not get into trouble in school. Meanwhile, the parents have to skip lunches and on top of that, they have to work overtime. So now, they are both tired and hungry. Yet, they never do complain. Everyday, they put up a strong front. EVen after working long hours with little to eat, they'll keep doing it just to put us thru school. Y? Becoz they want us to have a better life. Some of those children will realize it sooner or later and will not waste their parent's sacrifices. They work hard, get a good education and later on in life: a good job.

Then, there's the total opposite. Generally they are know as brats. I have another word for them. But its just to vulgar for me to spell it out. Just get the idea okay? So what am i trying to say here? Well, our parents have suffered enough. Period. It's time we repaid them of their generosity without question, just as they had done earlier. Willingly. No second thoughts.

I just dont know why everytime i look at a parent, i'll think about how much he or she had went thru to raise their child. I'll think about it. Think about the hardwork, the sacrifices, the everything. It just makes me sad and mellow. Makes me think more. Dont know y.

Well, tmr's mother's day. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOM! Yeah. Think i'll take the whole family out for early dinner or something b4 i get thrown into the prison known as tekong serving 2 years for commiting a crime known as National Service. It has to be done. Infact, im thinking of doing more than 2 years. Only time will tell.