Captaining a team at this level is really hard. So hard that I'm actually taking my time to sort things out even though there tons to be done. I miss those days when being the captain of the team simply meant that I was one of the better players in the team. Right now, I think I'm quite a distant away from even being a decent player. Honestly, I am still shell-shocked from te day they told me that I was going to be made captain of the team. I thought it was a joke or something but as it turns out, it was no joke at all. Well, even if I was hoping for a leadership post inside the team, the most would be vice-captain since I wasn't even one in the previous seasons.

some men desire greatness, but little do they realize that greatness often gets thrown to those who least expects it; much less even desire for it

That said, it's not a declaration of my resignation or anything remotely possible along those lines. But yeah, it was a lot easier in secondary school and JC when the teacher ran the show while I simply led the team on the field. In uni, I am to lead both and off the field. Right now, what I have to settle with the other unis is the date for this year's Singapore University Games tournament. They want to play on the Hari Raya weekend(WTF?!). I mean, try playing a tournament on the 2nd day of CNY or even a day after Christmas or on the New Year itself. If we can have tourneys on those days as well, that I'll gadly adhere to those dates set instead of making a big fuss about it. Till the, I'm going to be making one he'll of a noise.

Another thing that's giving me a headache is the player's commitment to the team. It seems that the older we get, the more childish we become. I mean, with the tourney date so near, why can't people just make their social plans around the days that we train. I didn't know twice a week of training is so hard to commit to. And the excuses(not reasons) that they come up with are simply intolerable. I mean if it's something that involves a problem in the family, that I guess that there isn't much of a choice. Bit still, if one was dedicated enough, they would have actually take the pains of planning if around training hours(which are really precious due the faggot YOG which makes the hours really limited). If they were me, they would have been ignorant of any other plans other than training. But they're not me and I'm not them. So, I'd have to (soon) suffer from high blood pressure thinking of sorting out these miscellaneous qualms that these babies come up wtih. I can't help but to think of myself kore as a baby sitter than a Rugby captain.

If there's one thing that I fear is that I fear i might be losing myself as player. The absence of a coach(has since been rectified) meant that I had to pull up the slack and take over. That also meant that I couldn't train. Well, I hope that all thaws blows over soon(quickly please) so that I'd be able to enjoy myself again with this game which I had picked up ever since I crossed the line of puberty.