Dear readers(wonder if i really have any). Sorry to have not updated for the past few weeks. Or issit days? Yeah. Been kinda bz quite lately. So bz that i after booking out, all i want to do is to rest and relax. Blogging requires a bit of thinking and a lot of typing. Hence, that is not very relaxing. Blogging isnt even recreational at all. Its, urm...something something. Got no words to describe it so "something something" sounds fine for now.

Army life is kinda tough. To make things worse, all my instructors say that if i screw it up here, i might be sent back to BMTC after my section leaders course. After all, its been stereotyped that ppl who are militarily unsound will get sent there since they cannot really perform well in their units. Hence, they will be sent to train recruits. Turning young squimish boys into trained soldiers.....well sort of. 3 mths into the army since april, i really didnt quite catch anything that was taught. Really basic stuff there. It sucks. Big time!

Yeap. I think i've been exerting a lot of effort throught out the entire basic section leader course. Test results have been positive so far. Yeah...postive. I got 75.5/100 for my navigation test exercise. That's merely a pass. Yeap. You need to get at least above 70 to pass. Oh maybe that's my company's standard. Who noeS? Best part is to have score 100/100 for my SAR 21 test! Booyah! Sign for me to fight in an urban warfare unit? Maybe. That way, my navigational skills would somewhat wouldnt be tested to its limits. Yeah.

Okay, to the exciting army stories. Yeap. You all can go ahead and log off if u've heard it all b4 orrrrrrrrrrrrrrr you just dont want to hear abt it att all =). First up, urm....Exercise Catwalk. Yeah. Kinda boring. Walk here, walk there. Look for enemies. Kill them. Sort them out later. Comeback home alive(this applies to everybody in the 7 men section). Didnt do the night exercise since i was on guard duty. GOD! I hate guard duty. Back in BMT, i was all to eager to volunteer for one since it was my first time. Well, that's because of all the ghost stories you've heard about tekong and stuff. But now.....it sucks la. Everything is strict. Very regimental. And they wonder why ppl hate the army so much. Stupid bunch of higher-up-ers.

The exercise in tekong was somewhat an eye-opener. The navigation exercise was all find and dandy since i found all the day checkpoints. It only started when we wanted to head back to the day end-point. We werent allowed to walk on tracks sooooooooooooooo, we bashed thru the vegetaion. Thinking i was walking on a path, i just walked on happily. Then, i saw something weird. U still remember Noddy? Yeah. I saw his car....life size model. It was rusting away. There was 2. Behind me was 3 giant tombstones. REally really huge! It could either be that the dead person is a royal of some sort or that dude was really really fat. Or he could be both. God noes. All i wanted to do then was to go back home. So we walked thru swamps, streams, man-high lalangs before hitting a grenade range. Lucky for us, the throwing already ended sooooooo, we walked around it b4 hitting the road. Tt was the high point of my exercise! Yeah. Walked all the way back to the end point only to be sent off for my night navigation. Yada yada yada, we decided to take things easy and just enjoyed the night breeze.

The other exercise was a killer too. It was to simulate a war. And god...how much i hate fighting in a war. Sleep, food, rest is minimal. Work, sweat, blood, injuries and casualty rate is toooooooo bloody high. So's the tension between everyone. Getting thru it all was a painful thing. I decided to take it one meal time at a time. Wake up. And all i look forward to is lunchtime. Between that, we were on a mission. Afternoon mission would be followed by dinner time. After dinner, there would be some work that needed to be done. Taking it all a step at a time really worked well for me. Yeah. I even got used to the terrain. First day, i was really depressed as it was an enclosed area. By that, it was nothing but trees and canopies. You can hardly see the sky. And im claustrophobic. Or used to be. Insect bites, wild boar attacks, superiors hounding on u. Well, we kinda got used to it.

Every single opportunity that i get to "zone out", i would be thinking abt what life was like a year ago that very same day. And at every stand-to, i would be thinking to myself, "how the hell did i get myself into this?" Often, i would be thinking abt life and how fast it has passed by. Heck, i can still remember being a little boy going to kidergarten. Still rmb myself playing in the school band, the school rugby team. Playing soccer with my friends. Studying even. Horrible thought to be thinking of i noe but studying is nice. Given the opportunity, i'd rather be a student for the rest of my life. No worries....cept for my grades. Carefree days are long gone though. These days, careless days have come to rule the day. Everything is a chargeble offence these days. People push responsiblity to other people. So if the thing screws up, the person at the very end of the chain of command will get it big time.

Hell, lets just forget abt work now...and enjoy my off-in-liew! Hell yeah! Hopefully, someone takes over my LSM appt nxt monday.


Wonder where i'll be nxt when i start to thinking abt my own historyl.