Throw down some smack downs

I believe I have delivered the best analogy ever this morning during class. Analogies being analogies, they have to be anal to deliver the point. Well, I'm not really sure what made me say it but me saying "After you shit, do you use clean toilet paper or toilet paper that already has shit on it?" surely delivered the effect desired.

What a way to open up on things especially when I have been away for a month. I guess it has been sort of a drought for me as whatever comes to mind usually comes in the form of angst. So, in the spirit of "If-you-have-nothing-good-to-say-then-you-better-not-say-it", it all usually disappears through, well, abuse really. Hours of gym, a lot of running- physical pain really. After all that, nothing really matters. Aside from the immense satisfaction that I get after hours of "abuse" (mainly because of the shitloads of endorphins being produced by my body), being able to manifest pain in any form into a physical one actually helps because you know how to actually deal with it. This is actually why people slit their wrist. Those who jump down from tall buildings actually had skydiving in their bucket list but couldn't afford to do it properly so it's really a might-as-well kind of thing.

"I hope you understand" has become sort of overrated for me. Sometimes I wish I really wasn't that understanding really. But I guess this selflessness is innate. Well, not really innate but inculcated into me by years and years of training. Yup..training- not education, not socialization, not because of the way my parents brought me up. I am talking about being taught every single way to fight since I was young. While muscle memory has faded, my mind is still well attuned to perform those awesome moves that you can see in the movies. The only difference is because my body is not used to it, I tend to do it a lot slower...so slow that you would probably be done with lunch by the time I have executed a move. Any move.

Back from digressing, so yup. That's what I get from everyone day in day out. Sometimes, I wonder why I bother. Being captain doesn't explain it because I have always been for the team. In fact, I need a lot of good reasons for me to skip training. It has always been team first. Well, it used to be mission first...god I miss "mission first". Perhaps it's due to my protective nature. I don't know if my team knows or even appreciates what I do for them. Well, that doesn't matter because at the end of the day, we did win the championship last year. Let's see if we are able to hoist the trophy up again under my leadership.

I miss it when times were much simpler