Near misses aside, rugby today was rather alright. Well, coaching it at least. It's just something about rugby that I am so attracted about. By now, whoever's reading this must be going "UGH!!! Rugby again???" hahahaha. Like I said, it has shaped me to be the way I am right now.

That said, it has taught me something really valuable-mediocrity is actually a disease. I can never-again-understand how someone can tell someone else it's okay when it's obviously not okay. Well, this doesn't apply to anything except for the matter of effort. Like teaching. Never once did my parents praise me if I got good grades. They would only go, "im sure you can do better than that" or "so what's next?" That said, it actually pisses me off whenever they did that. But as I played more rugby, i finally began to understand what they really meant by it. It means, i've yet to reach my fullest potential. Though I did good, or rather decently, that doesn't mean I should be contented. IT only means that there's someone out there who's better than me and I should beat him(up! hahaha).

Coaching today was rather...urm..fulfilling. Acquaintances who are(or going to be) teachers have been proud to claim of what they make-namely their students tremble in fear. Well, I can make grown men cry. I can make they puke out whatever they had for the breakfast the morning before and if i push a little bit further, it could very well be the breakfast that they had last week. Sadistic? I think not. Detox? Pretty much so.  Well, perhaps this team would actually win something. They just have to trust themselves.

On another note, it sucks to see someone(seemingly) down. It's when you can see that they've distanced themselves even from themselves. Physically there but not mentally nor spiritually.  Distracted perhaps? Well, do what I do, spend some time alone. Like literally alone. The most extreme thing I ever did was to sit at a cemetery all alone. I figured that (i was only 16 then) since I was very very afraid of ghosts then...so why not face them then? If I can face my greatest fear, all else should roll by quite easily. And that I did, fortunately, it was all just a figment of my imagination. That place really turned out to be the most peaceful place in the entire world even though it was quite morbid for me to have done so. Or perhaps a nice long bike ride could ease it all away? Hmm...

a friend is someone who helps you up when you're down, and if they can't, they lay down beside you and listen