Suddenly...

Suddenly i feel like i dont have to mood to live. Dunnoe why. NOt that im thinking of suicide though. Just that life's pointless, aimless, directionless....compasless? It used to be school, then training after that. And on other days it would be rugby training after that. I wasnt really looking forward towards school. I was just looking forward towards rugby. Same thing i felt after my O lvls. Post-schooling syndrome? Probably. Wat pisses me off is how much i have to pay nowadays for transport! I mean..BLOODY HELL! I have to pay the full adult farE! I cant even use concession. Wat makes it so bloody unfair is that..IM NOT EVEN AN ADULT YET! Dumbass gahmen. They only want to make money by squeezing at every single opportunity possible. Then again, tat's THE only way tat you can make money. They dont care who you are, wat you are or how you are. If they can make money out of you...they will attack from every single position. Heck...they had the fare raised so many blardy times! This is despite the LARGE profits they were making that they made from the other fare RAISE! And it's quite RECENT TOO! Ppl like me have no choice because tat's the only way we can get to our destination. I could try walking but it might take at least 3 hours just to get to work! Stupid buggers.......
I dont know why im feeling moodless. I mean..heck! I was going to draw my money from the CCK mrt ATM. Up in front was a middle-aged women who was fiddling wif the machine. I got annoyed because she was taking more then awhile( and i was late). The i saw wat she was doing. She wanted to withdraw $50. But in her bank acct...she had very little money. Frm the looks of it...she must be somebody's mother and someone else's wife. It's the middle of the month and everyone is low on cash. Yup! Especially me! But atleast i still have my parents to depend on! I mean..tat's wat my dad said. He said tat he had money waiting for me for my Uni education. Up to this point...im beginning to doubt him. Back to the mother. I mean..heck! She's down on cash. But she still have to pay for the trpt in order to get to work so tat she can get more money to feed her children. But by doing so...she has to bypass the option of buying food for her children! Maybe she shld hv been a little bit thrifty when she got her pay. But who knows...she had to pay for hospital bills or mortages for her flat(which is ridiculously priced!)I dont know..
Then it hit me! Im going to NS soon. There..i will be taught to kill another man. That man is somebody's father and husband. To kill him is to practically kill his family slowly by torturing them wif the suffering thought of their dead father/husband. They will lose a source of income, protection, the child will have no one to guide him to become a well groomed adult and the wife will lose a source of unconditional love. It's like im being the trpt provider then charge the users to death except that i really will be doing the killing. Maybe i shld become a medic instead?