Today was the one of those days of day. No matter what I did, I just couldn't get myself to be motivated in what I was doing or what I wanted to do for that matter. I just simply wasted petrol on going to the gym in school and practically just fooled around. Wasn't productive at all. It really makes me wonder why do I let myself feel or be this way. Seriously. Like the saying goes-it is the mind that wills the body. I guess today is one of those days that the mind hasn't the will to do anything. Perhaps, the mind isn't present even at this very moment.

Perhaps it's this sense of emptiness that I am feeling at this moment. Void breeds boredom, boredom breeds contempt and contempt, well it manifests itself to many other things that affects. It slows me down-literally. In fact, I'm beginning to think that even a drunkard can think more clearly (I am more conscious than ever about this "more" thing) than this.

What is wrong with me? Well, I have no answers to that. Seriously. Is it in human nature to be this way? To be affected by emotions? Is this the price to pay for being human? Well, if it is, than I bet this is just the tip of the iceberg.

I think I'll need to keep myself occupied till just then.