And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes
And every waves drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice, He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

Boredom got the better of me as I googled my night away after a rather awesome day with my secondary school mates. Things just never gets old with them. Anyway, I was searching for meaning of things and I decided to google the meaning of my name as well. I don't know how accurate it could be but on certain points, I kind of agree with what it says. Let's see.

Your first name, Fadzil, makes you independent, resourceful, practical, and patient.
This could have some truth to it. But I guess only others could tell if I really am like that? Independent? My parents seems to think so since they trusted me with the most dangerous thing that any parent wants their child to do: Own a bike. Resourceful? Perhaps. People have found out that they don't really need to know how I do it, just that they have to request for it and there is a high possibility that they might just get it (:. Practical? Sometimes I can not be practical about things. But most of the time, I'd do things if they are within my means. If not, screw it! Patient? Hmm...it really does take A LOT to piss me off (even just a little).

You could be inventive along scientific or technical lines
I really should have taken that offer by NP 7 years ago. Who knows, I might be in MIT right now or something hehs. Well, I do tend to improvise on things rather quickly. Can be quite handy around the house but only when I'm in the mood for it.

Although you are not naturally spontaneous in musical or artistic expression, you can develop technical proficiency along these lines
I think I CAN pick up on things rather quickly. Just a little bit of time and a little bit of patience and I can learn new things quickly. Hmm..maybe I should consider acting? HA!

You are fussy about details and seek perfection in whatever you undertake
Information is what runs everything. But I'm not sure if I really am a perfectionist. I mean, I'll take pains and measures not to let something screw-up whatever I have planned. But a perfectionist? Though I have received comments that I am quite a perfectionist, I have doubts on that myself.

Being somewhat wilful and skeptical, you learn best through your own experiences and seek proof though facts
In other words, I can be very stubborn on somethings. I don't take what people advise me on rather easily. If it's trouble that I am heading towards to, I'd rather head towards that trouble just so that I can really feel the full effects of the consequences.
In other words, I can be quite distrustful of people as well. When there's something that needs to be done, I'd rather do it myself. I guess that's really a bane for me.

You work best alone, making your own decisions, and learning from your own experiences
In the Army, I have demonstrated quite a number of times that I work best alone. A one man army, The Unit Man, etc. In JC, I took the running of the team into my own hands- relegating everyone else from running it. I felt that the outcome was still rather good. Isn't this kind of the same as the previous point?

Despite your loyalty to friends, your communication at times is stilted, too candid, and frank
Does this mean that people do not take me seriously at times? Maybe because they're my friends that I am like that because when I am serious, nobody will like me. Seriously. Even I don't like myself when I am serious. I am dead serious about this! Hahah

The name Fadzil creates the urge to be creative and original, but we point out that it limits your versatility and scope, tuning you to technical details
Am I really that niau? Like I said, I don't want anything to screw up. Not if I can help it.

This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses centring in the head, and in the stomach and intestinal organs
A psychology professor told me the same thing before! Exactly the same thing! He says that when I'm out to achieve something, I tend to neglect everything else; everything else being my own health and stuff like that.

Well, I don't know how true this all could be. Then again, it takes someone to know me well enough to actually be able to say anything about this. Well, if you ever want to try it out, do visit www.kabalarians.com (: Maybe that will give you an insight to your own name. DO share it with me once you've find out.

If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where the should be. Now put the foundations under them