Hari Raya this year is rather so-so for me. I don't really see the need to celebrate past the first day really. Hmm, maybe the meaning of this celebration has been lost to me. I can't really put a finger to it but if I was to take a shot it the dark, I'd say that I wasn't really looking forward to it.

I guess, the only thing that I felt yesterday was a huge sense of relieve. Gone are the days that I'd actually look forward to the auspicious day. Right now, I am rather indifferent to it. Heck, I'm in school to get all of my stuff printed out(and then worry if I actually have got the time to read them all). Time is really a luxury. School is seriously taking the best out of my optimism. I am slowly crossing over into being a pessimist. Perhaps, I am just a realist- it is neither half full, nor half empty; just drink the damn water and get yourself another one afterwards.

Slowly but sure, I think my passion for rugby is waning. Not that I am intentionally doing so but my injuries are just too overwhelming at times. On top of that, I have a team to manage and everything. Sometimes, managing the boys makes me feel like I am running a day care centre. But, I guess I am (barely)managing. Like I said, I didnt ask for the position. It was given to me. And when I am given the honor of such things, that means that I must have done something right(or perhaps not doing too much of the wrong stuff- either way).

Back to Hari Raya, my cousins are really the saving grace for yesterday. Catching up is the only thing that gives any meaning(or what is left) for the celebrations. Being able to talk about anything without having to hold...

[I got chased away from the library as it was almost closing time..i am continuing the next day]

..anyway, being able to talk to someone without the fear of any consequences(as there isn't any to begin with) is a luxury which you cannot find in just anyone. When has it been the instance that you can talk to someone without the fear that you might hurt their feelings or that you're really trying to humor them(and sometimes, the only humor they are getting is from laughing AT you). Chances are, those kind of people are one in a million. Sometimes, even our life partners are not the kind that we were hoping for them to turn out. So when we do find that kind of people, the likelihood of calling them our soulmate tends to be rather high. Well, everything does seem like a good idea at A point of time. But as the time goes by....

Anyway, my train of thought has been disrupted by stupid closing hours. Why can't the just keep certain places open 24 hours a day. Wouldn't that be a simpler way of creating more jobs instead of thinking of ideas to open up new places to create jobs? Just take the places that we already have and keep them running the entire day. Trade space for time, trade time for space- money is still being generated isn't it? Sheesh...wonder how these people get paid so much but are too afraid to come up with such ideas. So much so for a vibrant city where everyone's asleep at night...

With our thoughts, we make the world