As everyone drifts away for a night of fun and games after training, i sit alone contemplating about the work that needs to be done. And i sigh...heavily...

Sighing comes from me not being able to put my best during the training when everyone was down. Perhaps they've limited and underestimated my abilities? Perhaps i am too kanchiong? Perhaps there is just too many things on my mind that is distracting me from the task at hand? Well, i hope to clear all doubts out about myself and others around me from my mind and concentrate on nothing but rugby for this weekend.

Screwing up is the last thing anyone wants to be doing this weekend. Currently, i am extremely inconsistent with my play and my abilities. No one else but only me has the ability to fluctuate my performance between awesomeness and sucky-ness in mere moments. Inconsistency seems to be my greatest fear and so i worry...

Guess the greatest fear anyone can face would be a quicksand. Like in a match, if i've committed a mistake, i will quickly try to rectify the problem. However, the more i try to solve it, the deeper i'll sink. And eventually, i'll drown. That is what im feeling about EVERTYHING now. Its a sinking feeling, but if i struggle, i'll just drown. I shall just let everything pass and hopefully salvation will come to me soon enough.

My prayers are going out as hard as ever. God help me now.