never had i ever thought it had turned out this way...but it did. each time i tried to make it work, u wouldnt accept it. i think i just cant make you happy like how you want it to be. i just cant make you happy without even having to try. it takes effort. it takes energy. it takes time. all of which are luxuries that i couldnt afford.

maybe...there is someone who can make you happy without even having to try. i thought i was that person. i've failed...miserably....hate me if you will. im just not worth it anymore.