After an hour of zipping here and there on the internet, i've finally know what to write. NS. ya. NS. National Service. Fuck lah! Among all the malay guys, im the only one who's not in the army yet. I tink. Wait, there's akbar! Ya! Okay. But im talking abt me. It's so frustrating feeling this empty void that others get to fill by cheerish every moment of their transition into manhood. Ya. They get to learn how to handle weapons. How to work in a team. DO YOU KNOW JUST HOW MUCH COURAGE IT TAKES TO PERFORM YOUR JOB OUT OF NOWHERE?! I mean, as a soldier, u dont have guidelines. It's not as if you're working a restaurant. Ppl know that it is the place that you work in. U know where to get the food and how to restock the items and stuff like that. But as a soldier, you're working in the jungle. Where you get ur ammunition and food is all up to u. How u complete the job is also up to u. Ppl wouldnt noe that THAT is ur workplace simply because ITS A JUNGLE! Not a restaurant or an office. So pride in doing that is courage enuff. Ya. I dont tink i expressed myself well enuff here. Well, at least i understand it myself.
Today, dean enlisted. Ya. So lucky for him. Dont noe y he enlisted on a thursday but all the better right? The earlier the better! I have to wait another 29 more days!!! That's soooooooooo far away! well...my patience is being tested here. Maybe i'll pass???
I've always believed in my mantra what happens is probably meant to happen anyway. Ya. So what is my purpose of enlisting on the 8th of april? What am i supposed to do till then? What is supposed to happen to me? Well, God aint speaking to me right now coz im not holy enuff. Suppose i have to find things out for myself. Maybe a blessing in disguise. Maybe a life lesson that im suppose to learn. MAybe a something something something something. Who knows? Only one way to find out. Live out the nxt 29days!