It is so bloody hard to get fit nowadays. Guess what. Running didnt really happen today! Ya. I put on my cap. My running attire. My runners. RAn. RAn.Ran. WAlked. WALKED!!! And its not because i was tired. Not because i was out of breath. Not because i was injured! IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS BORED! Ya. BORED! Running can be boring nowadays. I HATE RUNNING! Maybe i shld just stick to running in rugby. Or mebe race with someone else. Nah......i prefer rugby. Especially when im running with the ball. 1 person with ball. 14 of ur teamates supporting you. 15 of your opponents chasing after you with the intention of killing you before you score a try. SEE HOW THRILLING THAT IS! HELL YEAH! It's the most thrilling thing you can ever experience!

Well, i dont play rugby for any school now since im already out of school. Damn! I hate growing old. The next school(hopefully) i would be going to is in 2 years time. Unless you count BMTC School a real school. Maybe you could. Maybe not. Blurgh. Who cares anyway. Ya. It's been tooooooo long since i represented anyone in rugby. Im talking abt school level coz that's where everyone else sucked and i can reign tall! -evil lafter- club level is sooo hard lah. I find it hard to cope with the opponents being far experienced than i am. And truthfully speaking, i am one of the worst players in singapore la. seriously. So imagine if u're rugby is lousier than mine. I dont tink u shld even be playing rugby! hahahaha. Nah...u can improve. or try to. see where it leads u. Rugby is life. Everyting else is rubbish. This is inclusive of the phrase that women perfected rugby. pure bs. PURE. 100% pure! Coz if they perfected the game, they'd have already lost their boobs already. hahahax. I'll poop on u!

Urm ya. Abt the thrill part. I just love the feeling of being chased by someone who's really intent on catching me. Hmm...no rugby. Maybe i can try stealing! That could get me running. That could make me fit! HAHAHAx. Ya. Stealing for the thrill. It is wrong morally and religiously though. Hmm....maybe i cld steal and run and then run back to return the thing i've stolen! SOUNDS LIKE A BRILLIANT PLAN! This is provided that the police does not catch me nor do they open fire on me. maybe they'll get on a massive manhunt for me later on. Damn...i dont want to run THAT long. It's just not fun anymore but plain scary. Hmm...i'll scrap tat plan.

Anyways, i was just watching the history of singapore. Ya. On Discovery Channel. ITs good to watch it you know! Especially young kids. In the event of a kidnapping, just annoy your kidnappers with random facts and they'll throw you back to your homes! Ya. That's wat happened to the kid. ALthough if I was the kidnapper i'd shut him up with even random talkingcock! rofl. BUT THAT IS NOT THE POINT! The point im trying to say is that our parents' time is almost up. Yeap. Do u realize that Singapore is ALREADY 40 years old. My dad is like OLDER! Imagine this, everything from his time is already gone. The only thing left to remind our generation of HIS time is himself! And ppl from his generation. Of course there's our grandparents too. Half of mine is aleady 6ft under. I only have 1 set of grannys left. YAY! But, i rarely visit them. Shit lah. HOW?!?!? I'll ask my mom about it. Dunnoe y but i suddenly felt sad during the show. Imagine this...everything that you see rite now, it's for us. IT's from us. It's to suite our tastes and whatever! But nothing of theirs. We still know what our childhood felt like. Why? Because the infrastructures still exists. The infrastructure of their time is already gone. TO MAKE WAY FOR OURS! They have nothing to remind them of their past. They are only living in the present as comfartably as they could. So if you want to be good children...go do ur parents proud. Make them as comfy as possible in this horrible present. Its already bad enuff that they can reminisce about their childhood days. DOnt you bastards go make their lives worst off. Ninabeh.....

Urm. Yeap. Im 19 already. This sux. Nxt year i'll be 20. Ppl will see me as an adult. the year after, my live is my own responsibility! Shit. WAy too fast for me. Way toooo fast. Last year i was complaining tat im growing too fast. And last year felt like only last week! AND THIS ISNT THOSE LAME JOKES WHERE YOU"D TRY TO CRACK ON THE FIRST WEEK OF JANUARY! Yah. I can still rmb me being a toddler! Back in the PAP PCF DAYS! IT was the coolest man! I'd scramble thru my work and then play with my frens despite the teacher glaring down on me. Rofl. I remember whacking someone with something. Couldnt rmb wat. IT was some musical instrument. I got barred from music class for tat day. ROFL. I rmb whacking this bully with my brother. Hahahax. He went home with a bloody nose. Actually, his mom came to fetch him. So she was looking for me and my brother. ROFL! We hid inside the garden. And then there was the time me and my fren ate chocs inside the toilet. Hahahahhax. Great memories. I kinda miss those days. Btw, the bully i whacked kinda became my buddy during primary school days. I guess he had forgotten abt the whacking incident. Ah...primary school. It was a mishmash of everything. I transferred school. i played for the school basketball team. I was in the volleyball team for awhile. I was a band senior. YA. band senior at pri3. i even dance.....hehes. malay dance. Volunteered. Dunnoe y. The worst thing that happened was silat. Yeap. Student by day and SILATER BY NIGHT! hohos. It was tough. By then, i forgot what it was like to be a kid again.

Things got worst in secondary school. I made one bloody commitment to my rugby. My priorities were soooooooooo screwed up that rugby become a top priority. Studies second. Friends third. And everything else last. That includes family. REally! I sacrificed everyting and for the first time in my life...i was really happy! REally. And up to this day...im only happy when im around an oval ball! I still dont know why though.

Urm..i think i've gone overboard with this update. hehs.

PS. Anderson JC girl who ran the canal route behind Villa Verde, if you're reading this, contact me! ;) I caught you staring at me!!! hahahax.