Once again, something that I've invested so much in has failed to yield anything. I bet the first thing can comes to your mind when I say invest is, "yeS! Money!!" Well, that's partially true only because you need money to do something. Well, you need money to do anything actually. Prayers won't fill your stomach because if they do, those people at the mosque won't be asking for donations.

Everything felt dead wrong right from the start. Sure there were a lot of people who came down to support the team. Sadly, there were no familiar ones. I searched high and low..even right after making that awesome tackle on the "elusive" runner. But, no one. This was despite the promise made. I know right after reading this, someone's going to tell me off saying that there was no promise made. But that's besides the point. I've always been the kind of person who needs someone to support. Even the words, "Go Fadzil!" might mean a surge of inspiration (the higher the pitch, the better)for me to play on. I remember the last time this happened, I won a 200m race despite being the one to trail the pack at the halfway mark.

Alas, there were things that were of higher importance(or impotence as a result). I know I'm just being emo. Just felt like penning my thoughts out. I was just looking out for that someone....

The more I played the game, the more I felt like I was in a quicksand. MY greatest fear has come true once more. The last that happened was in SUNIGs when we played NUS in the 7s finals. Everything was going great than one mistake happened. And then came another and another. The harder I try to rectify, the worse it becomes. IT's a helpless sinking feeling which I felt again once more. The harder I try, the more I do, the faster I sink. The worse part is, There was simply no way I could get out of it. I panicked. I feared. Everyone leaned on me and I crumbled. The only way I was going to get out of that one was to ride the whole thing out.

By then, I've already given up hope of a familiar face. I've shaken off the fact that I cannot depend on anyone right when I need it the most. I don't need a loud cheer. I don't need much. Just a smile and your belief could have turned the tides. There was none. They were all strangers to me. Every single one of them.

Gives me one more reason why I want to join some faraway army so much.

This sucks like fuck